.// &&CALZ
Friday, December 02, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
SA2 2011
(This is typed when I was very tired so pardon any grammatical mistakes.)
This time, most of the papers we did were difficult. No kidding. Even for subjects that I'm usually good in, I didn't do well either. (And so did nearly everyone else, by the way.) I didn't expect myself to do well when I already met with many difficulties while doing the papers, but I didn't expect to do that badly either... You really wanna know? Well, I failed quite a bit of subjects.
Of course no matter how much I expected myself to do badly, I still would have had some expectation of my grades... So when I got back the papers today I still had a shock when I saw some of my marks... If I'm to be using 'cheem' terms that are usually seen in essays, I would've wrote 'disappointment and sadness coursed through me, despite the fact that I had expected not to do well'. Definitely the worst results I've ever had... And no, I'm not exaggerating.
All I can say is that I can only depend on my overall marks to pull most of my subjects' marks up... Thank goodness there's still the 'overall' marks. If the year-end results really only count the year-end exams results, I think most of us are killed. Still, I would of course still wish that I had done better than how I did.
All that aside, I feel... What's the word? Guilty? Anyway I feel somewhat guilty to my parents, like I've let them down because I didn't do well. I really hate to see that disappointed and sad look on their faces when I don't do well. Yes, one of my motivations to do well is because I don't want to disappoint my parents... Yet it seems that it's what I've been doing recently.
Sometimes it feels like I'm drowning in a body of water. Fighting to reach the surface, but yet the more you struggle, the deeper you go. Like the more I try to do well, the worse I do... Why is this so? If I let go, will I float to the top? Or will I sink even more?
Sigh... I'm feeling really confused right now. I don't know what to do anymore...
.// &&CALZ
P.S. Please help to trend #RIPYueYue if you have a Twitter account. It may not be much, but the world ought to know about the poor little girl who died in such a cruel way.
P.P.S. Going to update this blog on some of the more major events that happened recently soon.
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Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Lonely
Sometimes I feel really lonely. It's like, everyone has someone else but not me. Is it just me thinking too much, or does it symbolise something?
Today was rather a memorable one for me, and not really in a good way. It's the first day where we had geography, and I realised I didn't have the new notes that Ms Lau gave out before last term ended because I wasn't in school, and nobody kept a copy for me. I don't know to be more upset at who: Ms Lau who asked me to borrow someone's copy and photocopy it, or the fact that nobody cared enough for me to help me keep a copy despite me already informing a few people I wasn't in school on the day?
During literature, we also go from our class to the humanities room. I realised that I was walking by myself like I sometimes do while others go off in pairs or groups. Nobody was walking with me, or maybe nobody wanted to.
These made me think about the past few events and I realised that also, during assembly everyday, I'm almost always by myself as well. Even if I'm in the centre, nobody would sit with me. Do I give the impression that I'm unapproachable?
I wonder what changed though. I used to be able to make friends easily; now I'm forever alone. I do know that people change, but what changed so much that I can't interact with anyone anymore? Whenever I see my classmates chatting I can't join in because we don't have similar interests and I admit half the time I don't know what they're talking about. Like if they talk about their cca stuff or some artist who just released a new song and I have zero idea what that song is about.
Some time ago I also found some people who have similar interests as me, and I thought I could bond with them. But maybe life is never easy because right now I'm not that close to them. Maybe it's also like they're just some of the people who will walk in and walk out of my life but not be of that big a significance. In the end though, that just means I'm even more alone.
But thank goodness, in the end I also realise that no matter what, I have a group of people who will love me and care for me. No matter how alone I feel in school or outside, these people will still be there when I need them. I've since long ago abolished the whole age issue; somehow I feel I can interact with people who aren't my age better than with people my age. Maybe some will call me pathetic because I can't socialise with my peers but hey, friends are friends no matter how old or young they are right?
That being said, I also feel lucky that I'm born in Singapore instead of so many other places. At least I have a roof over my head, walk around with a full stomach and always having enough clothes to wear (but of course girls can never have too many clothes XD). It's like a form of cheering myself up, counting my blessings.
No, I'm not running away from my problem. All I can do is try to interact with others more and just see what happens next. I can't be changing my personality or tastes to fit in with these people because then I'll lose my sense of self. And I also can't force myself to listen to the music they listen to because we have different tastes and I don't like 90% of what they listen to anyway. But I'll need to take the first step; in the end I can safely say I've tried. I won't end up with regrets then (I hope).
Well, enough of my rants. I hope I can update on my UK trip soon~
.// &&CALZ
Today was rather a memorable one for me, and not really in a good way. It's the first day where we had geography, and I realised I didn't have the new notes that Ms Lau gave out before last term ended because I wasn't in school, and nobody kept a copy for me. I don't know to be more upset at who: Ms Lau who asked me to borrow someone's copy and photocopy it, or the fact that nobody cared enough for me to help me keep a copy despite me already informing a few people I wasn't in school on the day?
During literature, we also go from our class to the humanities room. I realised that I was walking by myself like I sometimes do while others go off in pairs or groups. Nobody was walking with me, or maybe nobody wanted to.
These made me think about the past few events and I realised that also, during assembly everyday, I'm almost always by myself as well. Even if I'm in the centre, nobody would sit with me. Do I give the impression that I'm unapproachable?
I wonder what changed though. I used to be able to make friends easily; now I'm forever alone. I do know that people change, but what changed so much that I can't interact with anyone anymore? Whenever I see my classmates chatting I can't join in because we don't have similar interests and I admit half the time I don't know what they're talking about. Like if they talk about their cca stuff or some artist who just released a new song and I have zero idea what that song is about.
Some time ago I also found some people who have similar interests as me, and I thought I could bond with them. But maybe life is never easy because right now I'm not that close to them. Maybe it's also like they're just some of the people who will walk in and walk out of my life but not be of that big a significance. In the end though, that just means I'm even more alone.
But thank goodness, in the end I also realise that no matter what, I have a group of people who will love me and care for me. No matter how alone I feel in school or outside, these people will still be there when I need them. I've since long ago abolished the whole age issue; somehow I feel I can interact with people who aren't my age better than with people my age. Maybe some will call me pathetic because I can't socialise with my peers but hey, friends are friends no matter how old or young they are right?
That being said, I also feel lucky that I'm born in Singapore instead of so many other places. At least I have a roof over my head, walk around with a full stomach and always having enough clothes to wear (but of course girls can never have too many clothes XD). It's like a form of cheering myself up, counting my blessings.
No, I'm not running away from my problem. All I can do is try to interact with others more and just see what happens next. I can't be changing my personality or tastes to fit in with these people because then I'll lose my sense of self. And I also can't force myself to listen to the music they listen to because we have different tastes and I don't like 90% of what they listen to anyway. But I'll need to take the first step; in the end I can safely say I've tried. I won't end up with regrets then (I hope).
Well, enough of my rants. I hope I can update on my UK trip soon~
.// &&CALZ
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Reflecting
Lately I've been thinking about my life. Okay, more like the recent events in my life. Thinking what I've been doing this year to have caused this year to be so different from the rest of the years in my life. To be honest, when this year first started I was really looking forward to it with great expectations (no I'm not talking about the Charles Dickens book LOL) but what I'd gotten back was mostly disappointment.
Looking back, in the midst of growing up I think I've lost my old self. The me in primary school. I miss that side of me, someone who's always cheerful (not saying that I'm not cheerful now but I think we all agree that we're happier when we're younger) and well not treated the way I am now. I should go and try find that side of me again...
I've also realised something: that no matter what I still have a whole bunch of people who really love and care for me despite their flaws. No, I did not just whine about my life, I did think about a lot of things. And to these people (I think you all know who you are), I can't begin to express my feelings and gratitude. All I can say is thank you for standing by my side through life's ups and downs. I hope you and I will forever be in each other's lives, loving and caring for each other. (Okay, that sounded totally disgusting and mushy. But still, it really is how I feel.) The two words thank you seem inadequate, but there is no other word to replace it. Thank you, thank you and thank you. And of course, rest assured that I love you too. :)
Sure, life is always unpredictable and let's face it, there're more downs than ups. But we should just try to keep counting our blessings. I'm gonna face tomorrow with a smile on my face. :)
.// &&CALZ
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P.P.S. I'm really gonna change my blogskin soon. I'm really irritated with the sidebar scrolling thingy already. What blogskin should I use next? Hmm...
P.P.P.S. Today 2PM, Rain and Miran (YG dancer) are in Singapore. Rare day! 110522~
Looking back, in the midst of growing up I think I've lost my old self. The me in primary school. I miss that side of me, someone who's always cheerful (not saying that I'm not cheerful now but I think we all agree that we're happier when we're younger) and well not treated the way I am now. I should go and try find that side of me again...
I've also realised something: that no matter what I still have a whole bunch of people who really love and care for me despite their flaws. No, I did not just whine about my life, I did think about a lot of things. And to these people (I think you all know who you are), I can't begin to express my feelings and gratitude. All I can say is thank you for standing by my side through life's ups and downs. I hope you and I will forever be in each other's lives, loving and caring for each other. (Okay, that sounded totally disgusting and mushy. But still, it really is how I feel.) The two words thank you seem inadequate, but there is no other word to replace it. Thank you, thank you and thank you. And of course, rest assured that I love you too. :)
Sure, life is always unpredictable and let's face it, there're more downs than ups. But we should just try to keep counting our blessings. I'm gonna face tomorrow with a smile on my face. :)
.// &&CALZ
P.S. Please help click on the nuffnang ad on the side? There on the right side~ you can't miss it! Don't worry nothing will happen to your computer if you click it. Just let me earn some money by clicking it. No, you don't have to pay anything. I promise. ^^
P.P.S. I'm really gonna change my blogskin soon. I'm really irritated with the sidebar scrolling thingy already. What blogskin should I use next? Hmm...
P.P.P.S. Today 2PM, Rain and Miran (YG dancer) are in Singapore. Rare day! 110522~
Saturday, April 30, 2011
SA1 2011
Just had my first paper yesterday, and it was English Paper 1 and 2. Not sure how well I did... Let's hope it ain't too bad.
When I did Paper 1 I realised what Mr Khoo meant by a 'special' functional writing question -.- it definitely had some different points from the usual question. As for the compo part, the story I wrote certainly was different from others that I had written. I hope whoever marks my paper isn't gonna misinterpret what I wrote because I forgot to explain one rather important detail ._. oops. Hope my marks aren't gonna suffer too much.
For paper 2, I wasn't sure of some of my answers... Are they correct or am I missing some parts? Ahhh... Somewhat worried for summary too but actually I'm more worried for compre answers. And lol when we saw the summary answer sheet (Ms Lau gave out before the exam. Wth lor.) I heard a wave of people saying SNSD lol!! (The paper was about Asians having plastic surgery.) Sorry to Sones but that was said by my classmates not me lmao.
Ahh anyway the papers' been taken so it's too late for regrets. Just gonna work hard for the next few papers, and then let's go party! /sings 2NE1's Let's Go Party
.// &&CALZ
When I did Paper 1 I realised what Mr Khoo meant by a 'special' functional writing question -.- it definitely had some different points from the usual question. As for the compo part, the story I wrote certainly was different from others that I had written. I hope whoever marks my paper isn't gonna misinterpret what I wrote because I forgot to explain one rather important detail ._. oops. Hope my marks aren't gonna suffer too much.
For paper 2, I wasn't sure of some of my answers... Are they correct or am I missing some parts? Ahhh... Somewhat worried for summary too but actually I'm more worried for compre answers. And lol when we saw the summary answer sheet (Ms Lau gave out before the exam. Wth lor.) I heard a wave of people saying SNSD lol!! (The paper was about Asians having plastic surgery.) Sorry to Sones but that was said by my classmates not me lmao.
Ahh anyway the papers' been taken so it's too late for regrets. Just gonna work hard for the next few papers, and then let's go party! /sings 2NE1's Let's Go Party
.// &&CALZ
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Upset.
This was meant to be posted yesterday, but I had a lot of things to do so I decided to post it here today. Don't worry, I'm not upset anymore. It's more like I want to document it so that one day, when I look back in life, I know what I had gone through before. I don't exactly have a good memory so this will certainly help me a lot.
A recap: basically, yesterday my Chemistry teacher was saying that someone did quite badly for a certain question on a test. Some classmates immediately suggested a name at once together (I'm not gonna say who here just in case) and when the teacher said no, they immediately said me. At the same time.
I'm not exactly sad. More like indignant and angry. These classmates don't even know me well enough to be able to say that I'm not good in Chemistry. (Which isn't true; I'm not that bad in the subject.) It's more like what right do they have to judge me like that, to instantly label me as someone who cannot succeed in the area? Are they geniuses at Chemistry? No, they aren't.
(By the way, most of these are from my tweets. I ranted about it on Twitter yesterday.)
I'm really quite pissed off... I think they thought I wasn't in class but I was. (I sit at the back of the class and they were in front, not facing me.) Wth, so these "classmates" talk behind my back? How nice.
To be honest I really like my class and I think they're real fun. But is it just me or are they biased against me? What did I ever do to them? How can they think I'll be the one getting a bad score? I scored higher than most of them anyway so who are they judge? NOBODY.
Why are people so freaking inconsiderate with what they say and do? Just because I'm not close to these classmates doesn't mean that they can insult me like that.
My class is actually very elitist. They all think they're so great, so people like me who aren't as great as them (translation: popular) are ignored and treated unfairly. What the heck. But actually Anderson is really segregated. There's a distinct difference between the top class and the "bottom" class, and even in between there are differences as well. The popular people don't mingle with the rest (not that often, and anyway not all of them do) and the outcasts still have friends. But why is it that I feel so alone?
It's not like I don't have friends. And I'm not an outcast. But in this class, sometimes I feel like I'm treated worse than one. Why, why is it so?
I contradict myself... Sometimes I feel like being alone, and once in a while I feel that people are better off without friends. The human nature is hard to understand and you can never know truly how another person feels. Sometimes, it's just easier not to try and understand at all. Yet underneath it all, I still need friends. We all do.
To my classmates: Whether I get good results or not has no freaking business with you guys right. It's not as if you guys contributed to my results anyway. And yet you guys still ask me for help. So I'm like some freaking tool to be used when needed and trampled on when I'm not? Is that what you guys see me as? I'm no longer human anymore?
FYI, I'm human and I have feelings too. I'll feel hurt even if I don't show it. And you guys are human too so shouldn't you know what hurts others too?
And you guys all said her name first. (The person who my classmates thought was the one who scored badly before they said my name.) So by association I'm involved as well? (I sit beside her.) Tsk. Please. It just goes to show that you guys are freaking biased.
Oh well, like I care whether you guys treat me as one of you. So what, friendships like yours are transcient and not lasting. I'm not asking to be friends with you guys because frankly I couldn't care less. All I'm asking is for basic respect. I'm not part of you guys and I'm not asking to be, but at least give me respect as a human being.
I've never been rude or whatever to you all, so why am I treated so? Why am I treated like an outcast when even the outcasts can talk to you all? I really don't get it...
But anyway, if you guys are gonna be treating me like this for the next 2 years (or 1 and 1/2 years to be exact), don't expect me to care. Because I don't. Just go ahead and treat me like this; it's not like I need to care anyway. You guys can just be of no importance to me.
Why should I help and care for those who haven't been nice to me, when I have been to you? Do you guys deserve it?
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That's about it... To end off, I'll just add a little more. At first I really wanted to scold vulgarities for what my classmates said (indirectly) to me, but I didn't. (When I say vulgarities I mean REALLY vulgar stuff. THOSE kind of vulgar.) Because I promised myself that I will never use the extremely vulgar vulgarities. And if I broke my own promise to myself because of some people's insensitive comments, it's really not worth it. A promise is easy to make, hard to maintain and even easier to break.
I'll just add in some quotes I saw on Twitter at the point of time of ranting, which I feel really relates to my situation in one way or another.
Angela:
- You need to have respect for people before people have respect for you. Mutual respect y'know?"
- When people do not respect us and we are sharply offended (I think she means really offended), that just means don't expect respect from us too.
Huiyi: Don't f*****g (I filtered it out) judge me when you only know my name.
@ViaSpongeBob: You could be the richest, the best looking or the smartest kid. But if your attitude is bad, none of them matters.
@ThisDamnQuote: Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Behind my smile, is tears at night.
.// &&CALZ
P.S. It's late, but happy birthday to Daesung! Finally 23 ^^ He's the most awesomest guy ever. Can't wait for his solo album! :D
P.P.S. Noticed my change in blogging style? Well, like I said earlier I thought it was time for a change. I just feel that it's right for me to use this style now. It'll probably take some time for me to get used to it from my old one-liner style but I'll manage. Continue to love this blog (if you are) please! :)
A recap: basically, yesterday my Chemistry teacher was saying that someone did quite badly for a certain question on a test. Some classmates immediately suggested a name at once together (I'm not gonna say who here just in case) and when the teacher said no, they immediately said me. At the same time.
I'm not exactly sad. More like indignant and angry. These classmates don't even know me well enough to be able to say that I'm not good in Chemistry. (Which isn't true; I'm not that bad in the subject.) It's more like what right do they have to judge me like that, to instantly label me as someone who cannot succeed in the area? Are they geniuses at Chemistry? No, they aren't.
(By the way, most of these are from my tweets. I ranted about it on Twitter yesterday.)
I'm really quite pissed off... I think they thought I wasn't in class but I was. (I sit at the back of the class and they were in front, not facing me.) Wth, so these "classmates" talk behind my back? How nice.
To be honest I really like my class and I think they're real fun. But is it just me or are they biased against me? What did I ever do to them? How can they think I'll be the one getting a bad score? I scored higher than most of them anyway so who are they judge? NOBODY.
Why are people so freaking inconsiderate with what they say and do? Just because I'm not close to these classmates doesn't mean that they can insult me like that.
My class is actually very elitist. They all think they're so great, so people like me who aren't as great as them (translation: popular) are ignored and treated unfairly. What the heck. But actually Anderson is really segregated. There's a distinct difference between the top class and the "bottom" class, and even in between there are differences as well. The popular people don't mingle with the rest (not that often, and anyway not all of them do) and the outcasts still have friends. But why is it that I feel so alone?
It's not like I don't have friends. And I'm not an outcast. But in this class, sometimes I feel like I'm treated worse than one. Why, why is it so?
I contradict myself... Sometimes I feel like being alone, and once in a while I feel that people are better off without friends. The human nature is hard to understand and you can never know truly how another person feels. Sometimes, it's just easier not to try and understand at all. Yet underneath it all, I still need friends. We all do.
To my classmates: Whether I get good results or not has no freaking business with you guys right. It's not as if you guys contributed to my results anyway. And yet you guys still ask me for help. So I'm like some freaking tool to be used when needed and trampled on when I'm not? Is that what you guys see me as? I'm no longer human anymore?
FYI, I'm human and I have feelings too. I'll feel hurt even if I don't show it. And you guys are human too so shouldn't you know what hurts others too?
And you guys all said her name first. (The person who my classmates thought was the one who scored badly before they said my name.) So by association I'm involved as well? (I sit beside her.) Tsk. Please. It just goes to show that you guys are freaking biased.
Oh well, like I care whether you guys treat me as one of you. So what, friendships like yours are transcient and not lasting. I'm not asking to be friends with you guys because frankly I couldn't care less. All I'm asking is for basic respect. I'm not part of you guys and I'm not asking to be, but at least give me respect as a human being.
I've never been rude or whatever to you all, so why am I treated so? Why am I treated like an outcast when even the outcasts can talk to you all? I really don't get it...
But anyway, if you guys are gonna be treating me like this for the next 2 years (or 1 and 1/2 years to be exact), don't expect me to care. Because I don't. Just go ahead and treat me like this; it's not like I need to care anyway. You guys can just be of no importance to me.
Why should I help and care for those who haven't been nice to me, when I have been to you? Do you guys deserve it?
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That's about it... To end off, I'll just add a little more. At first I really wanted to scold vulgarities for what my classmates said (indirectly) to me, but I didn't. (When I say vulgarities I mean REALLY vulgar stuff. THOSE kind of vulgar.) Because I promised myself that I will never use the extremely vulgar vulgarities. And if I broke my own promise to myself because of some people's insensitive comments, it's really not worth it. A promise is easy to make, hard to maintain and even easier to break.
I'll just add in some quotes I saw on Twitter at the point of time of ranting, which I feel really relates to my situation in one way or another.
Angela:
- You need to have respect for people before people have respect for you. Mutual respect y'know?"
- When people do not respect us and we are sharply offended (I think she means really offended), that just means don't expect respect from us too.
Huiyi: Don't f*****g (I filtered it out) judge me when you only know my name.
@ViaSpongeBob: You could be the richest, the best looking or the smartest kid. But if your attitude is bad, none of them matters.
@ThisDamnQuote: Behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart. Behind my smile, is tears at night.
.// &&CALZ
P.S. It's late, but happy birthday to Daesung! Finally 23 ^^ He's the most awesomest guy ever. Can't wait for his solo album! :D
P.P.S. Noticed my change in blogging style? Well, like I said earlier I thought it was time for a change. I just feel that it's right for me to use this style now. It'll probably take some time for me to get used to it from my old one-liner style but I'll manage. Continue to love this blog (if you are) please! :)
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Problems
Ahh... Exams are coming. T.T why so fast?! I don't like exams... I rather do lots of homework than sit for exams. It's the lesser of two evils. LOL.
That beside, the main reason for this post is because I REALLY want to go Korean Music Wave concert 2011 in Singapore. But it's the money problem... Actually, I'm close to saving up enough money to go for the concert, but I need to access the money I earned during Chingay this year, which is in my bank account. The problem is that I don't think my parents will allow me to go, and I need them to withdraw the money for me... Ahh. So what should I do?
1) Tell parents I need $ for the concert (basically telling whole truth).
2) Tell parents partial truth (I need $ for concert, but not how much I need.)
3) Don't tell and try to raise enough $ (SIAO) by May 7. (It's only when I have $125 then I have enough $... Not possible to save $125 in a week right?!)
4) Some kind soul out there who can sponsor me part of the money to go? :D (not quite possible either!! Hahaha~)
5) Borrow from friends. But who has $125 to lend me?!
6) Don't go and save up for concert dvd. This would work if a) it wasn't my favourite groups coming, and b) i don't think they're having a dvd cos it's a joint concert.
Aish... What to do... Lol it's times like this that I wish money fell from the sky. XD why can't the tickets be sold later... I definitely will have money later (shh, it's a secret). /rubs head
.// &&CALZ
That beside, the main reason for this post is because I REALLY want to go Korean Music Wave concert 2011 in Singapore. But it's the money problem... Actually, I'm close to saving up enough money to go for the concert, but I need to access the money I earned during Chingay this year, which is in my bank account. The problem is that I don't think my parents will allow me to go, and I need them to withdraw the money for me... Ahh. So what should I do?
1) Tell parents I need $ for the concert (basically telling whole truth).
2) Tell parents partial truth (I need $ for concert, but not how much I need.)
3) Don't tell and try to raise enough $ (SIAO) by May 7. (It's only when I have $125 then I have enough $... Not possible to save $125 in a week right?!)
4) Some kind soul out there who can sponsor me part of the money to go? :D (not quite possible either!! Hahaha~)
5) Borrow from friends. But who has $125 to lend me?!
6) Don't go and save up for concert dvd. This would work if a) it wasn't my favourite groups coming, and b) i don't think they're having a dvd cos it's a joint concert.
Aish... What to do... Lol it's times like this that I wish money fell from the sky. XD why can't the tickets be sold later... I definitely will have money later (shh, it's a secret). /rubs head
.// &&CALZ
Thursday, March 31, 2011
March holidays
Ahh, it's been so long since I updated my blog~ sorry people!
I have a feeling no one's reading my blog nowadays anyway...
But still, I'm not gonna shut this down.
There's too much memories here already.
Deleting this blog will be like deleting a part of me...
So this blog's gonna live on! :D
Anyway, this year's march holidays was no fun at all D:
Well okay maybe a little, but still I feel there's too much school-related things during the holidays that makes it not feel like a holiday anymore.
I had 2 camps (well one is before the holidays but still... Although I did appreciate missing 3 days of school, keke~), and extra lessons.
Not to mention extra tuition and my usual piano lessons... And homework, of course.
Ahhhh. No wonder people say sec 3 life ain't fun at all.
But anyway, I love my current class now! /random
I wouldn't trade this class away. ^^
Okay, back to topic...
So my march holidays was really busy and I didn't have much time for myself.
And I thought the point of holidays was for us to recharge and not to overload us with school-related things and suffocating us.
But I guess that's life...
No matter how much we dislike it, it's still something that we have to go through.
All I can do is to think of those who aren't fortunate to go to school and be grateful for this opportunity.
But I really wish that June holidays isn't as crazy and mad as this... (as if.)
Oh well.
Gotta go now, signing off~
Will blog again as soon as I can!
.// &&CALZ
P.S. I'm into DBSK's songs now. Now I get why so many people like them... Keke!
Really hope this amazing group gets back together soon.
Their songs are awesome!
P.P.S. I feel like changing my writing style. "Change is the only constant."
And I feel that I have reached a point where change is called for.
I'm not really sure about this, but I think my next few blog posts are gonna reflect it...
I have a feeling no one's reading my blog nowadays anyway...
But still, I'm not gonna shut this down.
There's too much memories here already.
Deleting this blog will be like deleting a part of me...
So this blog's gonna live on! :D
Anyway, this year's march holidays was no fun at all D:
Well okay maybe a little, but still I feel there's too much school-related things during the holidays that makes it not feel like a holiday anymore.
I had 2 camps (well one is before the holidays but still... Although I did appreciate missing 3 days of school, keke~), and extra lessons.
Not to mention extra tuition and my usual piano lessons... And homework, of course.
Ahhhh. No wonder people say sec 3 life ain't fun at all.
But anyway, I love my current class now! /random
I wouldn't trade this class away. ^^
Okay, back to topic...
So my march holidays was really busy and I didn't have much time for myself.
And I thought the point of holidays was for us to recharge and not to overload us with school-related things and suffocating us.
But I guess that's life...
No matter how much we dislike it, it's still something that we have to go through.
All I can do is to think of those who aren't fortunate to go to school and be grateful for this opportunity.
But I really wish that June holidays isn't as crazy and mad as this... (as if.)
Oh well.
Gotta go now, signing off~
Will blog again as soon as I can!
.// &&CALZ
P.S. I'm into DBSK's songs now. Now I get why so many people like them... Keke!
Really hope this amazing group gets back together soon.
Their songs are awesome!
P.P.S. I feel like changing my writing style. "Change is the only constant."
And I feel that I have reached a point where change is called for.
I'm not really sure about this, but I think my next few blog posts are gonna reflect it...
Saturday, March 05, 2011
280th post~
Whee, this is my 280th post!
Wow~
20 more posts to 300!
And this post is going to be a meaningful one~
Today I woke up at around 11am and went to http://www.freerice.com
This is a website that I go once in a while.
Basically, what Freerice does is that it has games on various subjects that people (Freericers) can play.
For every question that a person answers correctly, Freerice will donate 10 grains of rice to people who need it (eg Third World country people).
So far, I've played English Vocabulary, English Grammar, French, Basic Math (Pre-Algebra), Mutiplication Table, Chemical Symbols (Basic), World Capitals, Chemical Symbols (Full List), Identifying Countries on the Map and Famous Paintings.
And I've donated 12160 grains ^^ (equals to answering 1216 questions CORRECTLY; I've answered more questions than that but got it wrong -.-")
See, doing good deeds doesn't mean spending money; you can just do good deeds like this. :D
So whatcha waiting for? Go Freerice now!
Spread the love and care and do good deeds now :)
.// &&CALZ
Wow~
20 more posts to 300!
And this post is going to be a meaningful one~
Today I woke up at around 11am and went to http://www.freerice.com
This is a website that I go once in a while.
Basically, what Freerice does is that it has games on various subjects that people (Freericers) can play.
For every question that a person answers correctly, Freerice will donate 10 grains of rice to people who need it (eg Third World country people).
So far, I've played English Vocabulary, English Grammar, French, Basic Math (Pre-Algebra), Mutiplication Table, Chemical Symbols (Basic), World Capitals, Chemical Symbols (Full List), Identifying Countries on the Map and Famous Paintings.
And I've donated 12160 grains ^^ (equals to answering 1216 questions CORRECTLY; I've answered more questions than that but got it wrong -.-")
See, doing good deeds doesn't mean spending money; you can just do good deeds like this. :D
So whatcha waiting for? Go Freerice now!
Spread the love and care and do good deeds now :)
.// &&CALZ
Tuesday, March 01, 2011
March 1st
Another month, another new beginning.
I don't know why I feel like doing this but Imma just taking a little stroll down memory lane. :)
Looking back, February was full of ups and downs.
Though it's the shortest month of the year, I must say a lot of things happened.
And no, I'm not just talking about my birthday and CNY. :)
We had our tests, we got back our results, and not all of them were good.
Honestly speaking, I failed my Physics CA1 test and my Chinese compre test...
Definitely not a good start to the year.
But don't worry, this has further strengthened my desire to get good marks.
Remember, I'm the imperfect perfectionist :P
Also, during CNY my nephews came over, and among one of them there was this nephew (older than me) who played the piano extremely well.
Some should have heard this already but not all, so I'm posting it here as well.
This nephew of mine plays songs by ear, and can even play a song when he hears it for the first time (though not perfect of course).
And I love the choices of songs he plays~
(Can't remember all, but here's some of it.)
Lies - Big Bang
Haru Haru - Big Bang
Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi (The Secret that cannot be spoken) - Jay Chou
Baby - Justin Bieber (LOL)
Bonamana - Super Junior
Lucifer - SHINee
And more that I seriously cannot remember (he played at least 1 hour you know?!).
Anyway, my point is that he inspired me to be as great a pianist as him.
The ability to play by ear is amazing, and something which I haven't achieved yet :X
And I think it's any pianist's dream as well, in addition to being able to play all the songs that we want to play.
Maybe we've worked hard, maybe we haven't, but whatever it is, a month's already over.
Instead of lamenting over it, why don't we just take a step forward and make good use of a new month to start anew?
.// &&CALZ
P.S. OMG yay Big Bang's finally back with a new album + MV!! I love the songs like always~
Tonight was a good song but lacks the members singing together in harmony, and there's too little Daesung. /biased
Cafe is my favourite song out of the album, and not just because of Dae's part either.
I love the whole laid-back style and mood of the song, and the falsettos were killer.
Awaiting their next album and predicting that it's gonna be an even more epic hit than this album.
Who knows, there might just be a song that can surpass the epicness of Lies and Haru Haru!
Let's keep the faith~
Big Bang is loved.
#nowplaying Cafe - Big Bang
I don't know why I feel like doing this but Imma just taking a little stroll down memory lane. :)
Looking back, February was full of ups and downs.
Though it's the shortest month of the year, I must say a lot of things happened.
And no, I'm not just talking about my birthday and CNY. :)
We had our tests, we got back our results, and not all of them were good.
Honestly speaking, I failed my Physics CA1 test and my Chinese compre test...
Definitely not a good start to the year.
But don't worry, this has further strengthened my desire to get good marks.
Remember, I'm the imperfect perfectionist :P
Also, during CNY my nephews came over, and among one of them there was this nephew (older than me) who played the piano extremely well.
Some should have heard this already but not all, so I'm posting it here as well.
This nephew of mine plays songs by ear, and can even play a song when he hears it for the first time (though not perfect of course).
And I love the choices of songs he plays~
(Can't remember all, but here's some of it.)
Lies - Big Bang
Haru Haru - Big Bang
Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi (The Secret that cannot be spoken) - Jay Chou
Baby - Justin Bieber (LOL)
Bonamana - Super Junior
Lucifer - SHINee
And more that I seriously cannot remember (he played at least 1 hour you know?!).
Anyway, my point is that he inspired me to be as great a pianist as him.
The ability to play by ear is amazing, and something which I haven't achieved yet :X
And I think it's any pianist's dream as well, in addition to being able to play all the songs that we want to play.
Maybe we've worked hard, maybe we haven't, but whatever it is, a month's already over.
Instead of lamenting over it, why don't we just take a step forward and make good use of a new month to start anew?
.// &&CALZ
P.S. OMG yay Big Bang's finally back with a new album + MV!! I love the songs like always~
Tonight was a good song but lacks the members singing together in harmony, and there's too little Daesung. /biased
Cafe is my favourite song out of the album, and not just because of Dae's part either.
I love the whole laid-back style and mood of the song, and the falsettos were killer.
Awaiting their next album and predicting that it's gonna be an even more epic hit than this album.
Who knows, there might just be a song that can surpass the epicness of Lies and Haru Haru!
Let's keep the faith~
Big Bang is loved.
#nowplaying Cafe - Big Bang
Saturday, February 26, 2011
My rants, whatever.
Ahh, finally updating my blog again~
Life's been so busy I don't really have time to update anymore.
But since now CA1's over, I can update now!!
Yay :D
Although, I didn't score too well for my CA1s... :(
Failed my physics test, which was 80% of CA1!
Haiz...
But at least so far I haven't failed anything else (yet).
Thank goodness.
Let's hope I don't do too badly on the other subjects as well...
Anyway, what's the use of dwelling on it?
The tests are already over and there's no use crying over spilt milk.
All I can say is to work hard for the next tests and exams.
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Finally went around to counting my angpao money haha~
I know, I know, CNY's over so long and I haven't counted it.
Banked in $600++ (shall not say exact amount in case I kena rob :P)
LOL~
Kept around $50 for myself.
Also finally tidied out my stuff in my cabinet.
And found a whole lot of money...
Like, around another $80 in my cabinet at least.
Wowie!
I really should start keeping track of my money haha~
On that note, notice a little gadget over at my sidebar?
Over there, on the right side!!
That's right, now I serve nuffnang ads!
A simple introduction:
nuffnang is a place where bloggers can put advertisements on their blogs, and for every click on the ad, the bloggers earn money.
So please please click on the ads and let me earn some cash!
:D
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While clearing out my cabinet, I found an interesting note.
(I always find interesting things when I clear out stuff...)
It was a note I made last year, titled Cally's Tempting Fate List.
Some background info:
I read this book like a year or two ago, titled Undone by Brooke Taylor.
It's one of my favourite books.
In the story, the narrator finds a list made by her best friend who died in a car accident.
The list was a homework assignment where the narrator and her best friend had to come up with five ways to tempt fate.
In layman terms, it means to write down 5 things that are impossible to come true (at the point of writing down).
Anyway.
So after reading the book, I decided to create my own list as well.
I shall not say what exactly my list stated, but after 1 year I created the list, I found that 3 of my 5 things came true.
Amazing!
So, if you wanna tempt fate too, make a list as well!
But a word of caution, do not over-try your luck!
Good luck in tempting fate~
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Aisht, my phone spoilt. :(
Yup, my iPhone.
Haizzzzzz.....
I have no idea why either.
One day it was working fine, the next day I can't use the phone anymore.
Geez, what the heck happened?
Going to bring it to servicing tomorrow, let's hope nothing's too severe...
In the meantime, using my very lousy Sony Ericsson Walkman phone (yup, THAT one).
Suddenly just recalled Alina also is using her old phone because her new (I think touchscreen as well) spoilt.
LOL, so coincidental!
.// &&CALZ
Life's been so busy I don't really have time to update anymore.
But since now CA1's over, I can update now!!
Yay :D
Although, I didn't score too well for my CA1s... :(
Failed my physics test, which was 80% of CA1!
Haiz...
But at least so far I haven't failed anything else (yet).
Thank goodness.
Let's hope I don't do too badly on the other subjects as well...
Anyway, what's the use of dwelling on it?
The tests are already over and there's no use crying over spilt milk.
All I can say is to work hard for the next tests and exams.
---------------------------------------------------------------
Finally went around to counting my angpao money haha~
I know, I know, CNY's over so long and I haven't counted it.
Banked in $600++ (shall not say exact amount in case I kena rob :P)
LOL~
Kept around $50 for myself.
Also finally tidied out my stuff in my cabinet.
And found a whole lot of money...
Like, around another $80 in my cabinet at least.
Wowie!
I really should start keeping track of my money haha~
On that note, notice a little gadget over at my sidebar?
Over there, on the right side!!
That's right, now I serve nuffnang ads!
A simple introduction:
nuffnang is a place where bloggers can put advertisements on their blogs, and for every click on the ad, the bloggers earn money.
So please please click on the ads and let me earn some cash!
:D
-------------------------------------------------------------------
While clearing out my cabinet, I found an interesting note.
(I always find interesting things when I clear out stuff...)
It was a note I made last year, titled Cally's Tempting Fate List.
Some background info:
I read this book like a year or two ago, titled Undone by Brooke Taylor.
It's one of my favourite books.
In the story, the narrator finds a list made by her best friend who died in a car accident.
The list was a homework assignment where the narrator and her best friend had to come up with five ways to tempt fate.
In layman terms, it means to write down 5 things that are impossible to come true (at the point of writing down).
Anyway.
So after reading the book, I decided to create my own list as well.
I shall not say what exactly my list stated, but after 1 year I created the list, I found that 3 of my 5 things came true.
Amazing!
So, if you wanna tempt fate too, make a list as well!
But a word of caution, do not over-try your luck!
Good luck in tempting fate~
------------------------------------------------------------------
Aisht, my phone spoilt. :(
Yup, my iPhone.
Haizzzzzz.....
I have no idea why either.
One day it was working fine, the next day I can't use the phone anymore.
Geez, what the heck happened?
Going to bring it to servicing tomorrow, let's hope nothing's too severe...
In the meantime, using my very lousy Sony Ericsson Walkman phone (yup, THAT one).
Suddenly just recalled Alina also is using her old phone because her new (I think touchscreen as well) spoilt.
LOL, so coincidental!
.// &&CALZ
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Chingay 2011
Chingay 2011 was ah-sum (awesome)!
The mood was darn high during the performance.
I certainly enjoyed myself :D
So what did Chingay give me?
1. CIP hours. (Duh! That's why I initially took part.)
2. Money. (No, I'm not being materialistic, but how many CIP events give you money? Not many.)
3. Free food and drinks. (Nope, I'm really not being materialistic. But likewise, not many CIP events give out food and drinks either. I'm also making this point for SC's sake. XD)
4. New friends. (Seriously, Kimberly, Ying Hong, Xiaoman, Laurene, Irvin and Kwan Hong are ah-sum people. So glad I got to know these nice and cool people.)
5. The chance to dance. (Haha, it rhymes! :D Anyway, I don't get many chances to dance nowadays. I miss dancing. And hip-hop is so cool. I wish I get to learn hip-hop or street dance or those kind of dances in kpop MVs with ah-sum choreography. Yet another thing to add to my to-do list.)
6. Exercise. (I certainly got to work out. Something I needed.)
7. Fun. (This is something sorely lacking in most CIPs. Most of the CIP events I do are darn boring or quite difficult.)
8. Experience in hip-hop dancing. (Yay, another thing accomplished! :D)
I'll definitely join again, but not next year.
That's cos next year is sec 4 and I won't need CIP hours anyway.
But maybe for Chingay 2013 (provided the world hasn't ended yet) or 2014 (when I'm old enough to go CityAlive)?
All I can say is that I've not regretted joining Chingay.
Yes, even though I've to stay up late to complete homework and my test results probably suck like shit.
I haven't changed my priorities, but the point in the end is O levels.
They aren't going to bother how well you did for your tests.
And I can honestly swear that I'll work hard for O's.
So no problem there ^^
I think I shall sign off now...
It's getting late and I need to sleep.
Nights people, and watch me tmr on ch 8 at around 8 pm!
.// &&CALZ
The mood was darn high during the performance.
I certainly enjoyed myself :D
So what did Chingay give me?
1. CIP hours. (Duh! That's why I initially took part.)
2. Money. (No, I'm not being materialistic, but how many CIP events give you money? Not many.)
3. Free food and drinks. (Nope, I'm really not being materialistic. But likewise, not many CIP events give out food and drinks either. I'm also making this point for SC's sake. XD)
4. New friends. (Seriously, Kimberly, Ying Hong, Xiaoman, Laurene, Irvin and Kwan Hong are ah-sum people. So glad I got to know these nice and cool people.)
5. The chance to dance. (Haha, it rhymes! :D Anyway, I don't get many chances to dance nowadays. I miss dancing. And hip-hop is so cool. I wish I get to learn hip-hop or street dance or those kind of dances in kpop MVs with ah-sum choreography. Yet another thing to add to my to-do list.)
6. Exercise. (I certainly got to work out. Something I needed.)
7. Fun. (This is something sorely lacking in most CIPs. Most of the CIP events I do are darn boring or quite difficult.)
8. Experience in hip-hop dancing. (Yay, another thing accomplished! :D)
I'll definitely join again, but not next year.
That's cos next year is sec 4 and I won't need CIP hours anyway.
But maybe for Chingay 2013 (provided the world hasn't ended yet) or 2014 (when I'm old enough to go CityAlive)?
All I can say is that I've not regretted joining Chingay.
Yes, even though I've to stay up late to complete homework and my test results probably suck like shit.
I haven't changed my priorities, but the point in the end is O levels.
They aren't going to bother how well you did for your tests.
And I can honestly swear that I'll work hard for O's.
So no problem there ^^
I think I shall sign off now...
It's getting late and I need to sleep.
Nights people, and watch me tmr on ch 8 at around 8 pm!
.// &&CALZ
Tuesday, February 08, 2011
My 15th bday~
Ahhh my blog is like soooo dead...
Haiz no time update mah...
Sorry ppl!
Anyway today's my birthday :DD
Finally fifteen~
Time flies, huh?
I still remember myself at five years old...
And it's ten years already.
I'm only fifteen, but have already been through two decades, two centuries and two millenniums~
(Haha I took it from Twitter :P)
Sometimes I still can't believe that I'm a Sec 3 already.
It feels like yesterday I was a Sec 1 only...
But we all have to grow up someday. :(
I guess it's today for me.
Well my birthday wish is for everyone to be happy and healthy, and to have my other wishes granted ^^
And I shall do my downloaded song list part 2!
Downloaded songs - Part 2
What Can I Do - Seungri
VVIP - Seungri
I Know - Seungri ft IU
Don't Go Home - GDTOP
Baby Goodnight - GDTOP
Look Only At Me - Taeyang
Oh My Baby - Big Bang (It's similar to Y. Sort of a remake of the song.)
Y - Freestyle (If you heard before Wilbur Pan's Bu De Bu Ai, this is the actual version of the song. Wilbur plagiarized.)
Black and White - G.NA
Nameless Memory - SS501
Nothin' On You (Count On Me) - Jay Park
Hehe~
And I'm not even done yet!
Wait for part 3!
And a happy birthday to me~
.// &&CALZ
Haiz no time update mah...
Sorry ppl!
Anyway today's my birthday :DD
Finally fifteen~
Time flies, huh?
I still remember myself at five years old...
And it's ten years already.
I'm only fifteen, but have already been through two decades, two centuries and two millenniums~
(Haha I took it from Twitter :P)
Sometimes I still can't believe that I'm a Sec 3 already.
It feels like yesterday I was a Sec 1 only...
But we all have to grow up someday. :(
I guess it's today for me.
Well my birthday wish is for everyone to be happy and healthy, and to have my other wishes granted ^^
And I shall do my downloaded song list part 2!
Downloaded songs - Part 2
What Can I Do - Seungri
VVIP - Seungri
I Know - Seungri ft IU
Don't Go Home - GDTOP
Baby Goodnight - GDTOP
Look Only At Me - Taeyang
Oh My Baby - Big Bang (It's similar to Y. Sort of a remake of the song.)
Y - Freestyle (If you heard before Wilbur Pan's Bu De Bu Ai, this is the actual version of the song. Wilbur plagiarized.)
Black and White - G.NA
Nameless Memory - SS501
Nothin' On You (Count On Me) - Jay Park
Hehe~
And I'm not even done yet!
Wait for part 3!
And a happy birthday to me~
.// &&CALZ
Thursday, February 03, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Songs~
Sorry for not updating my blog!
Been really busy these few days...
Anyway lately I've been listening and downloading songs.
Just felt like sharing the list.
May be updating my playlist on my blog too if I want.
Anyway.
Downloaded songs - Part 1
Love In The Ice - DBSK
The Name I Loved - SHINee
No Other - Super Junior
Only One Day - SS501
Cry - MBLAQ
Stay - MBLAQ
We Belong Together - GD&TOP ft Park Bom
I Already Miss You - G.NA
It's kinda amazing how most of the songs I downloaded are sad ballads.
And I see quite some SM love over here...
Quite weird considering the controversy now.
Just to clarify, I'm a YG stan all the way.
And I'm liking DBSK more and more now...
After they separated.
My timing is really good huh?
LOL.
I think a certain person might be very happy to see this list...
.// &&CALZ
Been really busy these few days...
Anyway lately I've been listening and downloading songs.
Just felt like sharing the list.
May be updating my playlist on my blog too if I want.
Anyway.
Downloaded songs - Part 1
Love In The Ice - DBSK
The Name I Loved - SHINee
No Other - Super Junior
Only One Day - SS501
Cry - MBLAQ
Stay - MBLAQ
We Belong Together - GD&TOP ft Park Bom
I Already Miss You - G.NA
It's kinda amazing how most of the songs I downloaded are sad ballads.
And I see quite some SM love over here...
Quite weird considering the controversy now.
Just to clarify, I'm a YG stan all the way.
And I'm liking DBSK more and more now...
After they separated.
My timing is really good huh?
LOL.
I think a certain person might be very happy to see this list...
.// &&CALZ
Saturday, January 08, 2011
First week of school T.T
Well, the first week of school has passed.
And I'm already feeling the pressure :X
Have big eye bags under my eyes...
Everyone's been telling me I look tired T.T
I KNOW!!!
I have enough sleep every night, yet it's hard to stay awake in class.
I keep feeling like I'm gonna fall asleep soon.
Ahhh, wonder what's wrong with me?
Maybe the lack of sleep during holidays is finally catching up with me...
Haiz.
I don't even have enough time to do all the stuff I've yet to do.
Oh well...
Just have to deal with it bahhs.
.// &&CALZ
And I'm already feeling the pressure :X
Have big eye bags under my eyes...
Everyone's been telling me I look tired T.T
I KNOW!!!
I have enough sleep every night, yet it's hard to stay awake in class.
I keep feeling like I'm gonna fall asleep soon.
Ahhh, wonder what's wrong with me?
Maybe the lack of sleep during holidays is finally catching up with me...
Haiz.
I don't even have enough time to do all the stuff I've yet to do.
Oh well...
Just have to deal with it bahhs.
.// &&CALZ
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